I learned there are 2 different type of people in this world-- Those who are true friends and those who pretend to be your friend but are actually 2-faced little sons of *****.... and I guess I don't have enough genuine friends in my life right now and that's kinda sad. I guess I just surround myself with the wrong type of people but hey, what can I do? I go to such a small school there's not a lot of people to talk to.
It makes me want to cry and at the same time, I feel bad for them because they will never have friends that will treat them like they want to be treated if they keep treating people crappy like they do and that just makes me so---I dunno even how to explain it. I guess life will go on.
My life has been sooo crazy. Fake friends, I might be moving in the next few years, school stress, it's all so hard to bear. I try so hard to be a good person and not complain but I just can't take it! No one seems to appreciate what I do and I know I'm being a little selfish but it seems as if I just don't matter to them! I pray to God at night that I'll wake up happy but day after day after day life is just attacking me! Sometimes I feel insecure and I know we all do, but why am I feeling this pain? It's like I just can't breathe.
Maybe I should just give up; let life just flow on by but will I be doing the right thing? I just am soooo frustrated.
Of all the tears & the years that have gone by I just feel like I want to lay down and die. But I would never take my own life and I'm stupid that I would do that leaving this earth having my parents suffer....I just want to know people care about me in this world and that I make a difference. I just can't take it anymore I want to scream at the top of my lungs!!!
Well, set aside the tears, I'm probably gonna add some tutes today. Maybe that'll get my mind off things for a while. I'm still on my poppet's 1st foot since I didn't work on it yesterday but I'm hoping to get it done really soon! I just hope it turns out good being my 1st one and all!
Your's Truly,
Miss Divanistic
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Hey Diva, it's yorkielover8. You know, from craftster? I'm pretty sure we're the same age? 14? I just turned 14 on May 2. And I can totally say I agree with you completely! I feel the exact same way. I barely have any friends at school, and the only true friend I have, is living miles away from me! We were friends since, well, birth pretty much! And she moved when I was about 6. It was pretty emotional. I've only seen her once since then. So I feel like that alot. I even cried about it sevral times. Everyone calls me a wimp and I agree. They don't call me a wimp because of that though because they don't know about it. They call me a wimp because I HATE needles with a passion. In grade 4 we had to get our vaccinations in front of everyone and they had to keep me in with them for an extra half an hour because of trauma after the needle. So I can relate to this because I feel like that almost on a daily basis. I feel like everyone hates me and i'm unappreciated. But it's nice to know i'm not alone. Friends???
*PS maybe I can convince my mom to let me do a swap with you? It's a complete maybe though.*
<3 yorkie
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